Sarah "self-sabotages" because she really doesn't have self-worth. On the program, I saw a woman who genuinely believes she is an awful, disgusting person. I think she keeps running around looking for more money and more attention because money and attention distract her from the fact that that deep down, she thinks she is worthless and doesn't really know who she is.
I think that also ties into her unwillingness to change. Basically, if you believe you fundamentally aren't a "good person", why even try to "be good"? You know you will fail anyway.
The point is (and I wrote that before) that today psychiatry has suitable methods and medication to help people like Sarah who cannot feel love for themselves and cannot feel that they are loved by others.
If Sarah only would be able to realise that she is loved by her family, that she has sympathizers and that there are trustworthy people who would help her, then she could try to change, slowly at first but changing till she comes to a point where she says: well-done, Sarah, move-on.
I simply don't think standing on a rock in the desert crying "Why?" is going to help her when the "Why?" is not the question she should ask but: "What can I do to feel better?" and realise that shopping sprees and buying sympathy from foreigners is not the right way to achieve satisfaction at all!
She may ask "Why?" to whoever she will meet after her death if there still is the need to ask someone,
At the moment she has all she needs to pick up her life and change it. She has people who love her, a place to stay, the occasional fun outing and the chance to be helped by professionals.
But instead she threatens all that by going public with people who only see her as a dollar-bringing Royal shipwreck.
I don't want to talk about the numerous opportunities Sarah had not to be bored when she was still married to Andrew. She could have used her access to the private Royal archive to look out for a co-author and write books about former members of the BRF. She could have written children's books about life in a palace then and now. She could have gone into publishing coffee table books about things Royal. I am sure the queen would have allowed her to do things like that I don't doubt that she could have kept her part of the proceedings just like Prince Edward could have kept his from his film production (only that he didn't make any money from it). She could have even done a "prince Daniel" and attend university on a "Royal" or paid ticket to follow up on her interests in history.
Well, she didn't and I understand that looking back at all those opportunities lost she has no more self-respect and loathes herself for making so many terrible mistakes. But she could stop doing them and opt to think for maybe the first time about the consequences her doings have for other people, especially her family. And find thusly her self-respect again. But I doubt she'll be able without taking professional help first.
Now I'll let everyone back to the topic.
