When I was about 4 years old, I asked my mother whether this princess I saw on television was real. Before then, I never realised that princes and princesses existed, I thought they were fantasy. And there there was, this real live princess, Princess Diana [she was HRH at the time]. I was captivated by her, I thought she was so beautiful. I guess she reminded me of my own mother; tall, slim, blonde, Sloaney style, same accent etc.
I went to a CofE school, Diana and the rest of the royal family naturally came up in conversation a lot. I have vivid memories of her being on the cover of Hello and The Times, especially when I was learning to read. I remember watching all those Newsround stories about her taking the boys to Thorpe Park, the divorce, her losing her HRH styling. She was most defiantly my hero, I remember thinking that I wanted to look like her.
My mother watched the Panorama interview when it was broadcast. I was 5 going on 6 at the time, acutely aware of what she was saying. I was sat on the floor, still in my school uniform; we'd been out, my mother let me stay up late. I just remember thinking why was the door open during the interview.
In August 1997, we were holidaying in Majorca. I remember asking my step brother where Diana was, he just pointed north. I was most defiantly aware of the hype surrounding her and Dodi. The night we came home was the night she died. We were flying over Paris when it happened (obviously we didn't see anything). I woke at 6am, put the TV on and found out what happened. I was frozen with shock; my hero was dead. I didn't believe it. I ran upstairs to my mum and told her, she didn't believe me at first.
As I grew older, whenever people said her name I would just be overcome with melancholy. I can't really explain it. I've read the Andrew Morton book, every time I read them I cried. I couldn't believe what actually happened to her in her life. Like everyone else I saw parallels between her life and mine, the unstable family life, bulimia etc. The more I've learnt about her the more respect I have.