Sounds like one of my cats.
But cats do this by instinct.
They have a natural need to check the spots they've marked. With Sarah, I think it's because she's an unsettled soul. She's not found something to really satisfy her.
She knows what will satisfy her. Unfortunately it's not something that's possible for her but she won't let go and will use any means to touch that star called the high life. She's so addicted to that world that she doesn't see how good her life is. Selfish and sad all at once.
Despite this, Sarah understands. Her reaction during the ten questions with Time shows that she understands. Some people are ignorant of how their behavior affects their life but Sarah
knows. She wouldn't react so angrily if she didn't.
I know this comng from a family of hard headed individuals, I've seen this. I've
done this. Build a wall to not face the truth. Build it high and thick and choose to defend it till your dying breath. The thing is, eventually, the truth finds a crack and when it does the break will be EPIC.
My 21 year old sister is going through daddy issues at the moment and I just tell my mother to wait because sis will break and have herself one hell of a cry and then open up. Sarah unfortunately might not hit that point till it's too late.
Different people regret at different ages, if you're lucky you'll do so early or not at all, Sarah is so far advanced that I feel that the breaking of her emotional wall might honestly destroy her.
I felt that pain once while under the influence of something I won't mention by name
Try to imagine the worst possible thoughts running through your head at high speed. The ones you avoided forever because you simply couldn't deal. Imagine trying to push them away only to find that your mind has lost the ability to protect itself, that that section is literally broken and that you can clearly
feel your inability to protect yourself as the world comes crashing down. Imagine crying and mumbling the same sentence over and over on a couch in a college dormitory's game room at 2 in the morning.
I was 22. Only five years ago. I survived but hurt and nearly lost the person I love most in this world. Now imagine being a
50 year old who has wasted what should've been the most productive years of her life chasing after the glittering world of the wealthy. Imagine waking up one day and realizing that you've been luckier than one person should be. That you have a wonderful ex and two great daughters who have suffered for you by standing by your side. Imagine how Sarah might react when her selfishness finally turns and stares her in the eye.
Her family's public protection seems pathetic in it's seemingly never ending acceptance of her behavior but hopefully it's just the public face. Hopefully the girls are trying to make her understand how ridiculous she seems, how she's doing herself no favors. How, as they grow older, they can't be expected to pick her up every time she falls.
IF this is going on, the emotional break will be hard but not destructive because the family would've been there, prepared for her to pop. But if what we see in public is real, if Andrew Beatrice and Eugenie are truly blind to Sarah's faults, then Sarah might end up finally cracking and committing a truly unforgivable act in her desperation.
Or worse.